Tuesday, November 15, 2005
My childhood
Today I went back to my childhood for a few hours it was quite a adventure, full of half memories and remembered thoughts. Simple joys are not always easy to come by, they often get lost in the big picture, deadlines and finish lines can get in the way. I took the day off today, God even got one day off. I would like more. Life can just keep moving, faster then the earth spins in its orbit, faster then I forget to say please and thank you, faster then I lose trust in the universe after every pit full and every new trouble that brews.
A cat decide to stop in the middle of the road today, it just stared at me for a moment. It stopped a object many times its size and it felt powerful ,it was so calm, no need to fear.
Sometimes a good cup of a coffee or a big warm hug is all we need to remember how lucky we are to be here.
It is not every day that we challenge ourselves to try a little harder or not to give up, but taking on something that is new and foreign and scary as shit is a great way to trick the brain out of patterns.
I always have big plans for my self, always have things for myself to do, I just never do them. When do we stop making excuse for we bad things happen to us and just figure out the lesson without the pain. Every time we pray for a green garden a brighter day or a bigger paycheck we forget the reason things are being laid out in the first place.
I decided this week to quit trader joes, I saw the exit sign at the end of the tunnel and I was getting push out. I was fighting it, saying just a couple more days and then I will live. But I just kept walking in the same place just getting more and more upset. Maybe we have to build up enough emotional power for a change to take place. It is scary how you have to really do nothing for the universe to push you forward.
I applied at New seasons today and it felt good. Sometimes the things that scare us most are the things that feel the best to do. Sometimes it is just enough to let go. It let it just happen the way it wants to.... I had all that baggage from trader joes and I let it out and am okay with moving on, now working is not as bad......
anyway this is getting long and I tend to ramble in circles...... I really like that piece you send even if it is from someone else. I think Mom and Me and you should write are own version of it and get other to also. It would make a nice little book. Sometimes when you let it all out you find out things about yourself that you never knew.....
A cat decide to stop in the middle of the road today, it just stared at me for a moment. It stopped a object many times its size and it felt powerful ,it was so calm, no need to fear.
Sometimes a good cup of a coffee or a big warm hug is all we need to remember how lucky we are to be here.
It is not every day that we challenge ourselves to try a little harder or not to give up, but taking on something that is new and foreign and scary as shit is a great way to trick the brain out of patterns.
I always have big plans for my self, always have things for myself to do, I just never do them. When do we stop making excuse for we bad things happen to us and just figure out the lesson without the pain. Every time we pray for a green garden a brighter day or a bigger paycheck we forget the reason things are being laid out in the first place.
I decided this week to quit trader joes, I saw the exit sign at the end of the tunnel and I was getting push out. I was fighting it, saying just a couple more days and then I will live. But I just kept walking in the same place just getting more and more upset. Maybe we have to build up enough emotional power for a change to take place. It is scary how you have to really do nothing for the universe to push you forward.
I applied at New seasons today and it felt good. Sometimes the things that scare us most are the things that feel the best to do. Sometimes it is just enough to let go. It let it just happen the way it wants to.... I had all that baggage from trader joes and I let it out and am okay with moving on, now working is not as bad......
anyway this is getting long and I tend to ramble in circles...... I really like that piece you send even if it is from someone else. I think Mom and Me and you should write are own version of it and get other to also. It would make a nice little book. Sometimes when you let it all out you find out things about yourself that you never knew.....
